Sep 24, 2010

thoughts on editing my life.....

I read a book recently by one of my favorite authors. He is a favorite of mine because he is a little weird, but deep, and just not quite right. I say this with the utmost love:).  I will probably never meet him, which is fine. I might not like him if I did. You know what thats like.  You make a person into who you think they are and then when you meet them you say,"hey, that isn't who you are. You are like this. You are not some flaky, double minded hippie and you are so not that arrogant!"

I like people who are a little off. They come out with statements that make you wonder exactly where they came from and what the heck happened to them as children. They make me laugh and i really like to laugh. I feel like I say that a lot, but its true and so its okay. I am drawn to people like that, maybe because  I didn't think that was okay as a kid.  Not the laughing part. We laughed a lot in my family. We were silly and ridiculous sometimes. But, certain ideas. A pressure to be a certain way, to act a certain way, believe a certain way, no variations and no gray areas. I have no idea why i felt this way. I do not blame it on my parents. Hey, they are a little weird sometimes too .... which is a good thing :)
Maybe it was the time, or town , or church I attended......hmm, yea for sure the church. It wasn't bad. It planted me firmly in my faith in Jesus so that was a god., ha ha, there I go again. I meant to write good and I love it when it comes out god, just wish i could capitalize when it comes out that way.... seems so disrespectful.  Sorry God, didn't mean it that way, but want to give you a shout out!
 So, would I go that church now? No, but that might be another blog.....

Back to the book. Its called, " A million miles in a thousand years". Won't mention the author to protect his identity. Doesn't that sound hilarious? I just had to say that. How many time do you say you want to protect someone's identity, like they are in the witness protection program. Hey, thats another blog too, I know this really happens to people, you really know, and you really like, and poof , they are gone....

I am protecting the authors identity so he doesn't become arrogant and I wont like him. As an author,  he would not be happy with me, but since I am pretty much writing to myself its okay. I know who it is and I am a fan...so its all good. No worries D.M.

The point of his book is "what I learned while editing my life" . I loved what this book might be about but as i started reading I found i really didn't like the book. I started wondering why he wrote the book and if he did it to make some cash and had he become self absorbed and I almost quit reading the book. Hey, i had some CS Lewis books waiting for me and a new Brennan Manning book i had picked up and was waiting to read.... so this guy had better pick up the pace and quickly.

I stayed with the book and when I got to the middle of it I started really loving it. It became relevant to me. The first half was painful, the second half was pure joy.
I started thinking about the first half of my life as compared to the second half. I had a great first half but I also experienced some extremely painful losses, but they molded me into who I have become for the second half of my life. I believe God is using me through these trials and has given me a passion for him. Its my journey and maybe he knew what it would take to make me "all in" and passionate for him. Just my observation and maybe I am just weird enough to think these things......:)

more on this book later....

1 comment:

  1. Don't worry. He isn't arrogant. He is actually hilarious. But he has bad pant style for sure. (Not his fault, he is single after all)

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