I am free

"I am free to live for you".... Newsboys

Another day to be free, to celebrate the life I have been given, Not a perfect life or one without pain, but one that is guided and blessed by the creator of the world. Wow, that makes me wonder ... totally wonder why..... and then, I am simply grateful.

Grateful that I have been married 18 years to a sweet, tender hearted man who can be arrogant to a fault and cynical to where I swear it has to be a gift from God, he has perfected it so. I used to tease that it must be one of the fruits of the spirit, he and i were so gifted in it. I have since learned it is not a gift and not very pretty. The one with that gift is usually the only one who enjoys it:).

Grateful that even though I have no idea what the next chapter of my life is going to look like, I can look forward to it with anticipation. I can trust God to give me his best as I trusted my parents as a child when they would take us on a trip or surprise us with something. It was good and always more than i hoped for.

Grateful to love .... The night before Jesus died he gave his disciples a new commandment. " A new commandment i give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you....By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another." John 13:34-35

Galations 5:6 " The only thing that matters is faith expressing itself through love."

I want to love my husband better in the next 18 years than the first. I want to love others better in the second half of my life than the first.

Problem is I have no idea how to do this and the truth is I am not very good at it. I don't always want to do it,.... okay, most times I don't want to do it. 

I think if i really want to love I only have to read John 15:12 " Love one another as I have loved you."

That makes it crystal clear to me. I cant love on my own, but I can follow Jesus example and love as he loved. With his help of course  : )